and theres no one here but me

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

i miss running.
i dunno why i dun run anymore ;(
maybe cuz i dun have time. or i guess im just making plenty of excuses not to run. i COULD have wake up earlier to run but i just prefer sleeping into the afternoon. i love baking under the sun last time but now i prefer to stay indoors. the sun can actually make me feel SICK now.

thats so sad.

after i stop running, i feel that ive lost a part of me. every weekday i go to work and every weekend i go to shop. i put on pretty clothes, wear some makeup and all im ever interested in is whats new at forever21.com

i see myself as just any other lady out on the street. looking out for the most uptodate fashion tips, drooling over designer goods and checking out other babes (and what they are wearing). I JUST FEEL THAT IVE BLEND IN WITH THE CROWD. i dun feel SPECIAL. ive become some self-conscious bitch who simply cares about how much money is in her pocket, how much more to spare and what new stuffs to buy and pamper herself.

i need to find my passion back.
i need to do things which are more meaningful.
i NEED to regain my self confidence.

so im now going to announce,
im going back for Standard Chartered Marathon 2007 again.
i did it in 2005 and i wanna challenge myself again for 2007.
so from this day onwards i better start watching my diet, get my ass moving, regain my fitness and do that one thing that i love the most.

RUNNING... here i come!!!

xoxo,amy10:51 PM

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