Thursday, October 05, 2006
bad things come in pairs.
or maybe more.
with the bad news of not-getting-into-moto-interview-list comes 2 other bad things today. down with luck, looking off-form and absolutely demoralised for the day. ;(
i woke up with a swollen eye today. freaking painful cuz when i blink, it stings. but i cant wear specs to school cuz i cant see well in my specs anymore. they're nearly 4years old and blurry so i stuck my contacts in as usual and went off. and i totally regret coming to school today cuz it totally sucks. my eyes became watery at first and then the swell worsen. then it became dry for god-knows-what-reasons. so vroomvroom.. i hurry come back hall after lessons to fix this eye.
and well the day started off bad. haze is making me feel even more sick. i rushed thru my assignments and went for my heat transfer tutorial at 2.30pm. when i got into the class, someone passed me an A4 paper with our grades for CA on it. i know i will flunk it cuz even though i studied and prepared for the CA, i slept at nearly 4am and became a zombie the next day. i blanked out when i faced the paper. i felt like i was slit at my throat. i dunno how come i blank out but it just happened and i sit there helpless like a child cuz i couldnt remember a single thing and all equations became alien to me. WHYYYY??!!
so well it's over and im over with it. but well, my DEAREST tutor actually went thru so much trouble (like thanks huh!!!) to type out all scores and printed it on paper for everyone to see. not only that, he printed many copies of it and everyone is supposed to keep one. everyone passed except me with a big FAT FFFFFF. like FUCK. yeahs f for fuck. so all thanks to him, my result for that quiz was broadcasted to the whole class. i was so goddamn humiliated. some motherfucker who sat in front of me told his friend "hey how come got F one?" --->referring to yours truly. indeed a motherfucker.
and there i was. sitting on the chair looking like a total idiot with my worst score being spelled out on an A4 size paper and distributed to all goddamn geniuses in my class. by the way majority got an A n B with some less-smartalecks who got C and probably the next lowest score is at least a D and im F. no one got E. so there you go once again.... im being highlighted. and i bet the others are laughing at this loser typing this blog entry now.
im so pissed that im gonna do well for my exams and make sure that tutor eat that crap piece of A4 shit. GODDAMMIT . KNNBCCB. RARRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!
and then i was late for my soci class for freaking 15mins (nt my fault cuz my i ended the prev lesson late and ive got to walk from north to south spine!) and im supposed to lead the discussion with a friend today. it's so bad cuz my partner was waiting for me ;( okay but charanpal was easy with me cuz he was like smiling when i entered the room. anyway the whole discussion didnt go quite well cuz everyone was in a stone mode. except this time because i was in charge of the discussions, i have to add in comments whenever there are pauses. and i think i blabbered alot of rubbish today. hahaha whatever but i was pretty surprised i did enjoyed myself at the class today cuz norm i dread the soci class.
and now all i really need is just some peace. i think i have went thru too much dramamama today and i just need a break.
but before that, ive got to make sure i do something for lab report discussions over the weekend cuz i aint gonna let those guys to have something to complain about me for not doing my job. plus ive got lotsa tutorials to catch up. wonder if i have the time at all.
xoxo,amy7:39 PM
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