Thursday, August 24, 2006
I guess as im growing older, "what i want" is becoming more and more simple.
i remember when i was celebrating my birthdays in my childhood, i use to have alot of wishes and i cant decide which is THE ONE that i should wish for. and i will wish for many things at one go and pray to God that he grants me all wishes even though i was greedy. but as i grow older, i dun think about what i should wish for anymore. or perhaps, the wish before i cut the cake will always be "i wanna be happy". it's not that i cant be bothered with wishes but it's just at that moment of time, whatever material goods doesnt come to mind but just "happy" this word. all the dresses i adore, tops i drooled over, shoes im saving up for and bags i cant live without all *POOF* not there when im making wishes.
and as i grow older, i pray to God for good health for my family. when i was younger, i used to pray for good results.. more money... strike 4D/toto.. meet a good man etc etc etc. but in the recent years, when i go to the temple, i only pray for good health. "make everyone in my family healthy". and i no longer relied on God for good results. i know of few people who doesnt pray. they dun believe in any form of God. but you can never take away these kinda faith because humans thrive on comfort and security and by relating to a certain "being", you thrust yourself into his hands and let yourself believe that you are safe . my mum told me something about religion. she said that people irregardless of power and wealth are still dependent on another kind of "being" for emotional support. what they hope for might not necessary come true but it's the HOPE in the first place that pushes people on.
there are many things i observe when i get older. alot of things are very different now. alot of people are different too. i was once being told that friendship doesnt last forever. perhaps it's true. maybe 10 years down the road, when the people in the clique doesnt see eye to eye anymore, they will lose the feeling of familarity. once that peak has been reached, people break out of this "bond". old friendships broken and new friendships made. how can we ever decide that friendship last forever in the first place? but i guess it's this idea that "last forever" brings more assurance to people. the word "eternity" contains this spiritual and emotional feeling that is just pleasant to the ears.
xoxo,amy4:26 PM
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