and theres no one here but me

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

i dreamt of sumone last nite.
n i was like in a daze de whole dae
de dream is like so real.
real as in cuz it reflects wat i actually wanted
-sigh- such dreams make me feel so exhausted.
lemme sleep peacefully tonite

ive got slight headache now.
n my vision is very blur.
i dunno wads happening to me?
cant b i suffered a concussion n now it affects my eyesight?
i hope nthg's wrong.

tutorials r stressful.
de tutors ask questions one by one
n dey always ask me qns which i dunno
i hate gng fer tutorials
i hate my tutorial class cuz i hate those act smart asshole showing off their knowledge n trying to suck up to de tutors. i hate de scholars cuz dey mug soo much. fcuk ntu lahs. i hate ntu as much as i hate cockroaches. this is a sch fulla smartasses n i dun seem to fit in. even joining a cca can b so stress. n muz claim enuff pts fer hall nxt yr. so many things to do...so lil time. i wonder if i can survive.

n i feel so alone in this big sch
i walk ard...dunno anyone n dunno anything
i go back to my room n hide everytime after sch
deres no where fer me to hang ard in sch
deres no one to tok to or do anythn wif
everyone's occupied wif their bfs or ogs or watever shit
n watever lahs. it doesnt matter anymore
cuz ive gotten used to staying alone in my rm
it feels better this way.
i'm in my own world
lemme hide in my bed n slp forever.
god bless.

xoxo,amy7:46 PM

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